been a long road to follow

Post 16.5 :: Wow


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This really made me stop and think. In fact, I had so many thoughts running through my head that I had to make another entry!

Krysti's post was very interesting; it was right on-target, too. So much on target that it made me fidget in my chair. Quite uncomfortably, actually. I realized that I have to learn to stop and take things into perspective... I would say "sometimes," but I think maybe I'd need to do it a little more often than that. Anyway, her entry gave me quite the profound moment of realization and... well, it struck me as one of those trains of thought that could change your life (or how you think about things).

As I was reading, I came across a paragraph that really made me stop and think: "Wow. I want to be someone like her." (second paragraph?) It made me think about how I act in the face of difficulty, my own or someone else's. I realize again how clumsy I am in these kinds of situations; is there a way to practice? Does it come naturally? When were the people-skills handed out and was I in the bathroom at the time?

Changing the subject rather abruptly, I realize that my problems are quite... trivial. Especially that large stick up my butt that represents my grades/GPA. Really, it's only a number. A 4.0 isn't absolutely necessary to go on living. So why do I blow these small cowpie problems into giant heaps of stinking compost? Gods, I've done so many things I wish I could take back. So many things I regret, could have done better, should have done better... I always say I'll cut down on the complaining. I think it's high time I start for real. No empty words. I wonder how far that set of words will go before they run out of gas. Compost is actually a pretty good analogy though -- instead of letting it sit and stink up the place, use it as fertilizer. Learn from mistakes and everything that turned out and rotted.

Now I must think: How many of my friends' problems should I have treated differently? Have I treated too lightly? Or is it worth it looking back at all the mistakes I've made? How long should we study the past to learn from it? When are you learning from past mistakes? When are you brooding over them -- dredging up things that are better off put aside?

<3 It was a great entry, in my humble opinion. Thought-provoking.